What would Velma Dinkley do?

Today has been an awful day. Absolutely horrendously disgustingly revolting.

On the bright side, I bought Scooby-Doo fruit snacks!!

Woven All Up

"The best prophet of the future is the past"

I got a fortune today that I don't agree with.
I think the best prophet of the future is now.
Each moment.
Each choice I make.
Each glimpse of a chance that comes and goes and determines
Whether I'm going left or right,
Whether I'm going to smile or frown,
Whether I'll take another breath.
I think the best prophet of the future is now.

Woven
Do it.
Listen to Cosmonaut.
Then listen to Who Knows.
Do it.

"we travel on this road again
thinking like the cosmonaut
one hose for oxygen
and a suit to keep my ghost in"
-Cosmonaut

I've decided that the title of the mod I'd like to work on this summer is called "House of Lies". And I look forward to making that house lie to the player a lot. I'm really looking forward to figuring out how to create insanity within this game. As long as all things harmonize with the same goal, and the exploration leaves the player questioning themselves, then I think the point can get across. I have a lot more thinking to do about this, though. I have several ideas, but this puzzle can't be solved overnight.

"Who knows what's going to happen?"

I've been thinking a lot lately about truth again, and I always end up coming to different conclusions. I've determined that there is definitely a difference between absolute truth and personal truth, but I'm not convinced that those two things can ever be the same. I know that it depends on who you ask, but because one person says that their faith is absolute truth, and another says it is personal, isn't it then a personal truth?

What about people who don't "believe" in something we consider absolute (like math?). Is there anyone out there who doesn't believe in math? Math is something that we've just sort of made up, right? Is absolute truth made up? Does that make it any less absolute?

What about personality traits? There are certain things that I know about myself, like the fact that I'm very sensitive about the little things that people do. But is that an absolute truth? What if one day I decide that I'm not sensitive about those things. Is it no longer a fact? Are only facts absolute truths?

I'm not quite sure yet. I haven't decided.

"Bullshit makes the flowers grow and that's beautiful"
- Principia Discordia
A good friend of mine sent me that quote. I like it.

I just recently heard about a great band/singer yesterday and it's hitting the spot.
Rains

"Think about days
When happiness came
Through your eyes and into mine
Those were the best days of my life"

End of Semester Jitters

The summer is approaching quickly, and I'm not quite ready for it yet. There are a million big mountains I have to climb before the end of the semester, and I don't want to break out my hiking boots.

I've recently rediscovered my love for House of Leaves, an incredible book by Mark Danielewski. I want to create a mod based around the main character of the book, and I have a few ideas how to translate that disjointed, psychological thriller into an interesting, mystery themed mod. The biggest challenge will be mimicking the feelings the book evoked. I really want the player to get the same sense of dread, the same sense of isolation, darkness, confusion, and insanity. Insanity -- perhaps the hardest of them all.


I went on a few adventures recently downtown, and each one brought with it a sense of clarity (and a nice full tummy). Being alone on a nice day really makes me appreciate the strangers around -- I really like to people watch.

On my way back up this most recent time, I think a few days ago, I found something on the sidewalk just outside of Edmunds Elementary School:

It looked like a bunch of confetti splattered all over the ground.

It was then that I decided that whenever something exciting ceases to exist, it always leaves something behind. A few days later when I went downtown the splat was still there. I hope that whichever little kid owned this whatever-it-was, he or she isn't reminded of its loss every time he or she walks to school. Poor kiddo.

I went into Pure Pop the other day and got tons of free stuff, including an awesome CD titled "P is for Panda Mixtape Vol. 1". Check out the P is for Panda website and grab the cd. It's good stuff.

Speaking of Pandas....