Examining Lies

I have had a lot of things on my mind lately, yet I just haven't the motivation to come to the computer and put them in print.

Why is it that humans have the ability to form lies? Lies have such a negative connotation in our society, in our culture, even in most parts of the world, yet when I look at lies from a Freudian perspective, I cannot help but feel my bitterness towards lies disappear. Freud believes that our behavior is shaped around our personal attempts at sustaining and protecting our egos. He would say that denial, a form of lying to oneself, is a way that we block out the truth so we are able to see ourselves in a better light and function mentally.

So are you lying to protect your ego? Think about the times you have lied, whether it is something small -- is it to do this?

I would say that it is.

And in many ways it makes me understand why people lie, and while I'd rather know the truth, if it is best for you to lie to me, then maybe that's okay sometimes.

Sometimes I wish that Serge would lie to me. I'm running out of things to say to him to try and make him feel better. He hates AIT, he's incredibly unhappy, and I have not felt more helpless. Every night that we've talked this past week, he has just held so much anger towards his situation that he will not even talk about anything else, and all of his horrible feelings get dumped on me.. and there's nothing I can do. I'm going to bed frustrated every night because I cannot be there for him anymore.
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Things at school are going really well. I'm slowly warming up to the idea of summer, and I really miss my family. I'm looking forward to seeing them.