I have to keep my eyes on the bigger picture today, and I have to keep reminding myself of that. Work got me down in the dumps today; I was researching about South Africa, like normal, but I came across this documentary on Suicide in South Africa, specifically in a town called Kimberley. I watched a family grieve over the loss of their child; I watched friends cry and cry, explaining how they, too, had attempted suicide and were feeling numb because of anti-depressants. Their best friend had hung herself, and the girl's father told us how he found her, her jump rope around her neck. 10 teenagers attempt suicide a week in this town, and that number makes me choke. I watch these families cry, and I think about Amber. I think about how her mother found her, and about the song they played at her funeral.
South Africa needs more help than I can give it, I'm afraid. I feel lucky to be a part of helping any change at all, but I wonder if it will make much of a difference for these people. They have so much tragedy in their lives.
My research got me in a funk today, and even at 9pm, after the completion of Super Mario Galaxy, I can't quite shake it off. It makes me fall back into that hole in my heart where Serge is missing. It makes me miss him.
I'm hoping that this weekend will be filled with more rain and relaxation. More video games, reading, and empty-headedness.
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