Transitional

I sort of feel like I'm in a transitional period of my life right now. It's the sort of feeling you get when you're walking through your house at night, and you're going through a big empty room, but the next light switch is positioned all the way at the other end. You have to flick the first light off and become blind, walking through the darkness with nothing but an idea of your direction and the hope of its accuracy in your life. You hold your arms out, hoping to keep things at an arms distance away, and you only move slowly through the space. Each thing that you touch gets just enough attention for you to figure out what it is and move on, grateful for its affect on your direction.

Yeah, I think I sorta feel like that in some parts of my life.

Fun, Origami, and Fun with Origami

Today was fantastic!! A coworker of mine invited me out to this nice, little place called the Horseshoe Pub in Hudson, and a bunch of people came out for some drinks. It was a bit of a tease, considering I'm not 21 yet, but it was just gearing me up for what's to come in my future. Because we were a bit south from the studio, and there was no traffic out at 9:30, I made it home in just about 40 minutes, which felt pretty short in comparison to what I've become used to.

The 38 gang is a ton of fun, and I had a really great time hanging out with them all. I don't want my summer to end.

I've picked up a new habit: Origami! It's been a nice, relaxing activity that will take me a long time to master, I think, but I've been able to follow along and make some nice things already. It's been fun :)

Taking Risks and Getting Left Behind

Driving on the highway every day has made me decide that if this whole game design thing doesn't work out that I am about 66.66 % sure that I want to be a race car driver. It's made me think a lot about risk -- how some people risk their lives by becoming stunt-people or race car drivers or base jumpers -- and even though I feel like risk is a selfish thing, there is some sort of self-satisfaction that I'm beginning to understand. I still think that risking one's life is an act that is purely for the benefit of an individual and ignores the love and care from other people.

On another note, I've really enjoyed the amount of dancing I've worked into my day. I've enjoyed all that I've learned at my new job, and I've enjoyed continually learning how to deal with the loss that still lingers on my shoulders. I've enjoyed the busy-ness that has come with a new routine.

"I can't give it up

To someone else's touch

Because I care too much".

- The XX

Loving Through Dancing and Loving

I'm so happy that I came home for the summer. I was a bit apprehensive at first -- worried that the people from my past whom I hadn't seen in years would feel alien to me, and reconnecting with them would be difficult, but this group of people has nothing but love flowing through them, and I've felt really welcomed back into their lives after my three year disappearance. I can tell that they still care about and appreciate me just as much as I do for them.

We have been having regular dance parties now, and they are such a blast. The strobe light broke in the middle of the night, but that didn't stop us from continuing to shake it. I think we have all established that we all want to learn to krump, so that next weekend we can really get down.

HA!

Boston, Baby!

It has been a while since I have posted last, and much has happened in the meantime.

Things at 38 have been nothing short of totally, completely kick ass, and I love this job so much. I've met a lot of incredibly friendly people, and I've found the work has always been interesting, exciting, and fun. Even though waking up at 5:30 every morning isn't ideal, I don't think there is anything I would rather be doing.

Boston Post Mortem was earlier this week, and I have found that it consistently offers a fun night of entertainment. I always meet a few new people, and I have had the pleasure of seeing many of them fairly often at other industry events. With Boston Indies, Boston Post Mortem, Boston Unity Group, and who knows what else, I can say that Boston has one of the best game industry communities.

I'm currently sitting through Boston Unity Group's Unity Day at Northeastern, and it's really helping me get some inspiration for Senior Team Project. Tom Higgins from Unity Technologies is here, and he spent the morning showing us a ton of wicked cool stuff that will be coming out with the next Unity release coming "this Summer", he says. Unfortunately for me, he is going through the Lerpz 3D Platforming Tutorial -- an assignment Champlainers had last fall, so it is quite a bit of review. Tom is a really great speaker, he's going through this tutorial really clearly, and he has suggested so many fabulous resources for me to use next year -- including himself! Being here has really motivated me to get back into this engine, so I'm pumped!

Thursday night I had the extreme pleasure of going to an NBA Celtics vs. Lakers finals game, and I had an amazing freakin' time at that game. I've really never been a huge fan of basketball -- I felt bad for taking up the seat that I did -- but I ended up having such a great time, and my appreciation for basketball has increased tenfold. Basketball has drama, excitement, tact, and skill, and I've really enjoyed learning about players and seeing how they play from day to day.

I've got to pack up and head out early from this session, unfortunately. The next train is too early, and the train after that is wayyy too late.