I had a fantastic weekend. I went and saw my first show at the Radio Bean, and I loved it. It was just him, his guitar, and us -- only a few feet away. My heart melted. Beyond that time I spent with friends, which included that evening filled with two enjoyable movies -- New In Town and Rocket Science -- I was sitting at my computer chugging away for Recognition's Beta deliverable, which was yesterday. We made it, we did it, and holy crap I'm so happy it's done. We've still got a lot of polish to do on the game, and we've got a few Class B bugs, but polish is always the best part of the process, and I can't wait to make this game really shine.

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Ever since the breakup I've come to some conclusions about where my attitude and perspective is in my life. It seems silly that a break up can make you reevaluate these kinds of things, but it just goes to show how much I cared. I learned a lot about how care can be such a loving, giving force, and it can also feed into destructive ones, especially when the other side of the road is careless. I learned that this break up doesn't really matter to him, and that morphed my care into a lot of anger that I really don't want or need in my life right now.

So I've let go. What seemed like a horrible misfortune has now taught me about the extent of my emotional durability. I have a new sense of self -- a better self esteem -- and I'm so happy to be given the chance to find that person who "will show me why all the other ones didn't work", as my friend Mike put it. And I'm not afraid to take chances anymore. I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve and continuing to love everything to the fullest extent that I can.

I just got my hair cut short, got a red peekaboo, and I'm ready for the summer :)