It is strange to be back. The excitement of everyone else arriving back at school kept me awake for the day, although just barely. The flight and my arrival is all a blur now.
The trip isn't, though. While I seem to have lost my sense of time on the trip (because I cannot remember when exactly I did certain things), I remember every bit of it. I'll be posting pictures as soon as I get them from the location I backed them up on.
It feels strange to be back, and I'm worried about what this strange feeling might mean. Professor Meg Frenzen opened her arms to us on our way back to Burlington by offering her support as we try to transition back to our American lifestyles. She explained that it may be hard to be back in the states, living our privileged lives and taking most of it for granted. It is only when I sit down in my room, away from the company of others, that I feel it; it's almost a sense of disgust, but it is mixed heavily with guilt. It's too easy for me to sit down at a computer and get on the internet. It is too easy for me to walk down the street and not fear for my life.
I am so thankful for that easiness, though, and I'm more thankful now than ever. As I've written before, this trip has made me much more globally aware. I hope that some day in my life I will find the guts to move somewhere else in the world and live a different lifestyle, yet I fear that I love the internet way too much. It is the sad truth that it is hard to comprehend living in a world without such a large video game culture. Given just a taste of it made me homesick. I really hope I can find the guts one day....
2 comments:
Don't lose hope and do not give up games or the internet. Those will be our tools to offer a new world view - and opportunity to those who need it most.
When I pause for a moment all I can see is the children - and what little they had as far as information and knowledge. I also see how they embraced the cell phones - and American culture. This can be our hope to them. Please read what I just posted to Wes's blog as it applies to all of us - and we will celebrate - though that word may seem strange. We need to embrace what we have done, what we will do, what we can share, and each other.
I totally understand what you mean... about everything. I find myself thinking about it pretty often and for some reason has made me feel like more recluse from others, who havn't been on the trip. In all reality though I value the fact that we feel this way... it means we're more human then we may realize and in some sick way I'm happy that I'm bothered by it.
Glad I'm not alone =)
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