Healing

After a small hiatus of extreme sick-dom, I kicked back into action and got my ass back to work. I had a really fantastic weekend, seeing Serge again, going hiking, seeing Despicable Me, and dancing my butt off. Unfortunately I think all of that fun is what led to my sickness, but I thankfully recovered quick and feel right as rain again.

I was really nervous about seeing Serge again. It has been a whole year since I last saw him, but we clicked and had a great time together. We know so much about one another that it's only natural for us to be fast friends again. While there will always be kinks for us to work out, it's nice to know that the difficult feelings we ignored for so long can be forgotten in exchange for smiles. The bitterness has vaporized, and nothing but happy memories linger with us now. It's comforting to know that messy ends can bring blossoming new beginnings over time.

I hate to see my time at 38 Studios dwindling away. I feel like I have carved a place for myself there; I have built relationships, felt growth, seen what it takes to create something great, and I don't want to leave that behind. I had a round table lunch today with Curt, and I could feel the faith and excitement he has for the company emanating from his eyes and the things he was saying. It was so motivational that I couldn't help but feel energized by his commitment to 38. I want to be part of his dream -- to make his dream my dream and a shared one among the whole team, and I feel like I'm well on my way to doing so. It'll make it really hard to leave. I hope that when I graduate I won't have to.

My senior team met on Sunday, and it was exactly what I needed. Things happened so naturally, so gracefully, so peacefully and perfectly, and I think we all feel really passionate about the direction we're going. It's a super awesome hybrid of many elements that we want to touch upon, and I think that it'll turn out into something we truly love. We decided to use Unreal, which is a bit of a relief for me, and I think it'll help make our development process run much more smoothly. For one thing, we can SUBVERSION IT!!!! Yayyy!!

To (and from) Joey -- I am so pleased that "we've changed together and in the same way. I like that better, you know, than to see you going farther and farther away and being condemned to mark your point of departure forever. All that you've told me - I came to tell you the same thing - though with other words, of course. We meet at the arrival. I can't tell you how pleased I am."

-- Satre, Nausea.